This mom's purposeful journey to rediscover herself
Monday, February 15, 2010
Simple Pleasures, lost
I didn’t appreciate how many simple things that I did before children and loved, I had lost. And, even more surprising, how much I missed them and, for some, didn’t even realize. For example: I miss having an interruption-free conversation, movies, lounging in the bathtub without hearing my boys scream, cry, or fight, reading Oprah Magazine cover to cover, having days with no plans or responsibilities, sleeping until 12noon (hell, I’d be happy with 8:00am), hosting parties… (I could go on, and on, and on...)
I have begun to reclaim a few of those things. Recently, in a conversation fight with my husband, JT, my eyes welled, my voice cracked and I began to sob as I declared “I want to watch more movies.” What the hell??? Hum…clearly something is up… As my mother, a retired counselor once said to me “the emotions displayed do not correlate with the statement being made.” Certainly the tears were not just about movies. But, nonetheless, I want to watch more movies! JT could live happily for the rest of his life without seeing another movie and therefore, we rarely did. Lately, I have made movies a priority and I have thoroughly enjoyed it! It’s amazing how a two hour escape into someone else’s story can rejuvenate me – and JT actually enjoys it too. I am finding that adding this simple pleasure back into my life has positively impacted my outlook. Who knows, perhaps soon we will go out to a movie, or even subscribe to Netflix!